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June 10, 2026 · 1,079 words

Philosophy

Dear Ancestor, Explain Yourself

A formal complaint regarding civilization.

May 7, 2026 · 1,162 words

Motherhood

The Curl on the Corner of the Carpet

Pale clothes, missing buttons, and the sound of bangles being removed.

May 2, 2026 · 1,035 words

Grief

God Knows Where I Lost My TV Remote

It was somewhere between having a plan and quietly opting out of it

May 1, 2026 · 1,255 words

Grief

We Marked the Door Before We Mourned the Dead

The second wave, a sealed corridor, and how grief learned to stay inside

April 30, 2026 · 938 words

Philosophy

I Suspect I’m a Quantum System (Mostly Collapsing Into Disappointment)

I exist in infinite potential until observed, at which point I become… this

April 24, 2026 · 586 words

Cats

Corners That Don’t Get Cleaned

There are places you don’t think to look.

April 21, 2026 · 786 words

Philosophy

Chor Bakr: The City of the Dead

It was here that something in me felt most alive

April 21, 2026 · 806 words

Philosophy

Notes from a Door That Has Seen Too Much

A very old door in Bukhara has been quietly teaching people how to enter for centuries.

April 14, 2026 · 592 words

Travel

A Practical Guide to Visiting the Country You Were Born In

With special focus on locating places that no longer exist

April 8, 2026 · 1,104 words

Motherhood

I Became My Mother at 4AM

No one prepares you for the kind of life that settles in quietly

April 6, 2026 · 764 words

Dreams

The Catharsis of Nothingness

Not peace. Not healing. Just… suspended.

March 28, 2026 · 894 words

Faith

I Was Invited Twice

On asking God for the one thing you stopped asking anyone else for

March 26, 2026 · 775 words

Faith

Physics Needed Proof to Believe in Entanglement

People never waited for proof to believe in love

March 25, 2026 · 732 words

Cats

Some Nights, I Rehearse Telling You I’m Afraid of the Dark

A life continues in small, precise ways after the person it was built with leaves

March 25, 2026 · 1,027 words

Dreams

I Tried Everything to Feel Something

Running, collapsing, observing, arranging, returning, in fragments

March 23, 2026 · 2,291 words

Motherhood

What We Brought With Us

It happened slowly.

March 23, 2026 · 721 words

Philosophy

What Stayed in That Room

He meant it. Just not long enough

March 7, 2026 · 1,456 words

Philosophy

The Stranger at the Oasis

Familiarity has a price. Yet living without it has a cost.

March 6, 2026 · 647 words

Humor

The Only Thing That Didn’t Change

Fifteen years later, we met at an airport.

March 6, 2026 · 1,052 words

Motherhood

The Strange Loneliness of Being the Strong One

Sometimes strength is just loneliness that learned how to function.

March 3, 2026 · 953 words

Motherhood

The Cab Driver Who Had a 30-Year Plan

A cab driver with no radio had a clearer future than I did.

March 2, 2026 · 791 words

Philosophy

The Afternoon I Couldn’t Find a Reason to Hurry

On the rare discomfort of a day that asked nothing of me.

March 2, 2026 · 1,199 words

Philosophy

Her First Word Wasn’t What I Hoped to Hear

How I learned that what we call destiny is often just familiarity

February 25, 2026 · 1,000 words

Love

Completely Unbothered

I am calm. My nervous system, however, has filed a formal complaint.

February 25, 2026 · 670 words

Motherhood

Single Motherhood Is Mostly Administrative

No lessons, just survival and missing shoes.

February 24, 2026 · 743 words

Philosophy

Closure Is a Nervous System Event

Why understanding doesn’t end anything

February 23, 2026 · 992 words

Humor

Nothing Happened Today

And Somehow That Was the Whole Day

February 23, 2026 · 613 words

Philosophy

Self-Awareness Is Not Enlightenment.

I just watch myself make the same decisions with better vocabulary.

February 20, 2026 · 1,222 words

Love

February Is the Only Month That Doesn’t Ask Me to Fix My Life

A month of exams, first love, first loss, first job and the strange warmth that makes all of it return every year.

February 17, 2026 · 628 words

Philosophy

Some People Don’t Come Back. They Just Continue Inside You.

The brain doesn’t hold on to people. It builds pathways around them.

February 17, 2026 · 699 words

Philosophy

Your Personality Is Just a Survival Strategy

The traits you call “who you are” may be adaptations you never realized you outgrew.

February 14, 2026 · 648 words

Philosophy

On the Old Town Road

When language becomes the only way to carry what survives

February 13, 2026 · 767 words

Career

Humans Are the Only Animal That Knows It Will Die

And this changes how we live

February 9, 2026 · 495 words

Philosophy

You Didn’t Lose Meaning

It interacted with adulthood and never recovered.

February 4, 2026 · 1,097 words

Philosophy

Post-Expectation Delirium

When Meaning Doesn’t Arrive

February 4, 2026 · 693 words

Travel

The Light That Traveled Billions of Years to Die in My Eyes

“Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder” explained through physics

January 22, 2026 · 858 words

Family

The Coldest Hour

Age of Empathy · Winter Prompt

January 21, 2026 · 433 words

Philosophy

Sun Confirmed Yellow Again; Domestic Order Collapses

Today’s Bulletin

January 20, 2026 · 897 words

Grief

High-Functioning Grief is the Loneliest Kind

Why we were never meant to mourn while being productive

January 20, 2026 · 786 words

God

The Universe Is Indifferent

Ranting of a lover of astrophysics, reading books that are flying above her understanding.

January 19, 2026 · 790 words

Philosophy

The Most Violent Thing You Did Was Act Normal After

A letter to the person no one noticed

January 19, 2026 · 555 words

Mental Health

Everyone Is Healing. No One Is Accountable

Or: how therapy language became the most polite way to disappear

January 15, 2026 · 555 words

Love

I Was Addicted to Being Needed

On mistaking usefulness for love

January 14, 2026 · 370 words

Cats

My Cat Ran Away and I’m Supposed to Pretend This Isn’t About Men

On trauma, tenderness, and the urge to flee from being loved

January 12, 2026 · 574 words

Travel

Tomorrow, the city will wake up and keep moving, Eight people will not.

Because they do not have what I am wrapped in.

January 9, 2026 · 501 words

I Took a Bath Today

On hot water, fogged mirrors, and the days that barely move

January 9, 2026 · 551 words

Philosophy

The Other Side of You

A letter to the lost you.

January 6, 2026 · 855 words

Faith

Terminal Lucidity

Moments when clarity arrives just before we let go

January 6, 2026 · 889 words

God

Free Will Is a Lot Like Chess (And I’m Bad at Both).

On choice, constraint, and why some moves can’t be taken back.

January 2, 2026 · 641 words

Love

Laila Majnu

Are you willing to read the story again?

January 1, 2026 · 742 words

Philosophy

I Perform Even When I’m Alone

On living after the idea of authenticity collapses

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